man in the mirror.

friday, 26th june 2009

kulim, malaysia.

my mom woke me up.

and as usual, i slept back again.

and then she woke me up again,

and i slept back again,

and then she woke me up again,

and this time, she said 'michael jackson dah mati'.

i could never ever sleep again after that.

i mean wtfff!

it's michael jackson!

THE michael jackson!

the ONE AND ONLY michael jackson!

he's not supposed to die yet!

he's the guy who's supposed to live until he's like 80/90...

it was the most shocking news ever.

i have his whole discography in my iTunes.

ALL original.

ALL ripped from his ORIGINAL albums.

that's how much i admire him.

i remember when i was a kid, it was the time when michael was big with 'black and white'.

mid '90s.

back then, whenever they play his music videos, i'd be scared.

because most of 'em are scary.

like thriller, earth song, ghost, scream.

i used to be really scared, but i'd close my eyes and listen to the song.

the only music video i watched entirely back then was 'you are not alone'.

and then when i was 11, it was this phase of my life where i want to be like him.

dressed like him.

talked like him.

sang his songs.

memorized 'em.

watched every single video of his.

played the old VHSs until the were crying for me to stop rewinding and playing 'em back again.

he was really influential.

and plus, ammani and i were planning to go to his concert in KL next year.

he can't die now.

'not when he's making a comeback' said Aainaa Hadi.

true.

very true.

and it took me his death to really really investigate deeply about his life.

and no, people.

he did not bleach his skin.

he had vitiligo,

the skin disease that makes your skin look like a cow.

but his case was the whole body.

but he did undergo a nose surgery.

despite the vitiligo,

despite the nose,

despite the untrue accusations about his child molestation problems,

despite the fact that he's a little cuckoo at times,

and like he said, it doesn't matter if you're black or white,

he's still NUMBER ONE.

and he will NEVER DIE.

just like elvis. ask yourself, when did elvis die*inspired by yahoo!*?

he never died.

and this will definitely happen with MJ.

because you, MJ, YOU ROCK MY WORLD!

goodbye, MJ.

thank you for the music, the inspiration and the influence.